Babies,
At 11:22 today, your daddy took one last breath and went home to be with Jesus. Before he left, he wanted you to know that he cannot wait to see us again. He will be praising God and working diligently to prepare a place for us when we join him. I wish I could’ve seen his face lit in God’s perfect glory when he took his first step into his presence. I’m excited that he will get to see ours when we enter his gates.
The last time you saw him was last night on your way to bed. He wasn’t able to talk to you, but when I placed you on the bed Thurgood, you climbed over the comforter to him, and placed your head on his chest. This will forever be etched into my memory. Lulah Bear, you immediately crawled under the comforter and nestled up to Daddy. This was where you always wanted to be. The pain in my chest from knowing that you will have no memory of him is unbearable at some moments. I want you to know how wonderful he was. How badly he wanted to teach you everything you need to know for this life and the next. How much he loved Mommy and you both. How much I love him and how much you love him.
Lulah, my heart broke all over again as we were sitting with Lolo and Poppy in the blue room and you began to chant, “Daddy, Daddy, Daddy!” I didn’t know what to say. My lip began to quiver until Lolo began to ask you which one was Daddy while showing you a picture. The last night Daddy could talk, he told you he loved you and you told him you loved him, too! While these are just words to an almost-two-year old, they meant the world to him and it melted my heart to hear them.
Thurgood, these past two weeks have been so hard for you, Bubbie. You are overwhelmed by the influx of crowds and everyone wanting to play with you. You are at your calmest when you make your way into our room and step on Daddy’s step stool to climb atop our bed.
This life is but a blink sweet babies. I hope I tell Daddy’s story well. I think those around us and those who knew him will agree that your Daddy was the best. God used him to change lives. I cannot wait to see the plan that God has for you both. I love you more than I can possibly say. That love grew exponentially today as my daily Daddy love will be added to your allotment. I’m so sorry babies that you did not get ask him your questions and talk to him face to face about real and not-so-real things. I hope I do a good job at filling his shoes. I miss him so much already. I’m glad he let me have you. I’m glad He let us have you. I love you. So much. I’ll love you so much more tomorrow.
Mommy
At 11:22 today, your daddy took one last breath and went home to be with Jesus. Before he left, he wanted you to know that he cannot wait to see us again. He will be praising God and working diligently to prepare a place for us when we join him. I wish I could’ve seen his face lit in God’s perfect glory when he took his first step into his presence. I’m excited that he will get to see ours when we enter his gates.
The last time you saw him was last night on your way to bed. He wasn’t able to talk to you, but when I placed you on the bed Thurgood, you climbed over the comforter to him, and placed your head on his chest. This will forever be etched into my memory. Lulah Bear, you immediately crawled under the comforter and nestled up to Daddy. This was where you always wanted to be. The pain in my chest from knowing that you will have no memory of him is unbearable at some moments. I want you to know how wonderful he was. How badly he wanted to teach you everything you need to know for this life and the next. How much he loved Mommy and you both. How much I love him and how much you love him.
Lulah, my heart broke all over again as we were sitting with Lolo and Poppy in the blue room and you began to chant, “Daddy, Daddy, Daddy!” I didn’t know what to say. My lip began to quiver until Lolo began to ask you which one was Daddy while showing you a picture. The last night Daddy could talk, he told you he loved you and you told him you loved him, too! While these are just words to an almost-two-year old, they meant the world to him and it melted my heart to hear them.
Thurgood, these past two weeks have been so hard for you, Bubbie. You are overwhelmed by the influx of crowds and everyone wanting to play with you. You are at your calmest when you make your way into our room and step on Daddy’s step stool to climb atop our bed.
This life is but a blink sweet babies. I hope I tell Daddy’s story well. I think those around us and those who knew him will agree that your Daddy was the best. God used him to change lives. I cannot wait to see the plan that God has for you both. I love you more than I can possibly say. That love grew exponentially today as my daily Daddy love will be added to your allotment. I’m so sorry babies that you did not get ask him your questions and talk to him face to face about real and not-so-real things. I hope I do a good job at filling his shoes. I miss him so much already. I’m glad he let me have you. I’m glad He let us have you. I love you. So much. I’ll love you so much more tomorrow.
Mommy
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